I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!

Here I am on day 36 of my cycle (ignore that little ticker thingy on the right, it's got a mind of it's own, I'm not on day 3) and still no period. No cramps, no signs of a period even close. I got the two positive ovulation tests on days 12 and 14.....how could I have had two false positives. I mean, it wouldn't be out of the ordinary for me to not ovulate, but I got two positives this cycle!? If those tests were accurate, I should have started a period by now. Let's just say that worst case scenario I ovulated by day 13 because "they" say that you'll ovulate within 36 hours (either way) of a positive. So getting a positive on days 12 and 14 leaves only day 13 as a factor. So let's just say I ovulated on day 13. That means that I ovulated 23 days ago. That's just not even logical.

I took a pregnancy test like three times already this cycle and all say negative. I last tested on Wednesday morning.....so that was day 34. We bought more tests at Walgreens after leaving the gym tonight. I'll be testing again in the morning just to check.

After having so many negative tests, it's hard to let myself have hope....but here I go again hanging on to every last chance we have that this is our cycle. I feel every "symptom" and see every sign that I am pregnant....only to have it blown away with that pregnancy test result.

Tonight we'll pray that tomorrow's test will be different. Just maybe, we tested too early. Just maybe, it is our turn. Just maybe....